Overall, I think yesterday went surprisingly well. Reviewing my food log, I see that I did eat several things I wouldn’t eat in the normal course of my program, but I also see that my total calories weren’t really very bad. I may well have been within range; I would have to figure it up but I am not going to, that’s next week’s Game Plan. 🙂
One of the things that helped, ironically, was the odd heart-rate anomaly I had in the afternoon. I was fairly certain at the time, and still am, that it was fueled by erratic blood sugar, and not only was I not hungry after that, I don’t think I could have MADE myself eat anything. I wasn’t sure what might make it worse and wasn’t willing to take a chance. I had actually bought more chips and still had a bag of M & Ms, but didn’t eat any of them. I feel pretty good about that!
In retrospect, I need to ease up on the coffee. Probably better go back to the green tea for the winter, which is fine. I definitely have to start staying away from diet soda too, unless it is caffeine-free – back to the diet Sprite, which again is fine. I don’t think either of these will be a problem.
I did great yesterday evening, I am actually very proud of that even with the chips on break. I ate my sandwich before going to work, and didn’t eat a thing after I got home. I did think about it, but frankly there wasn’t anything here I wanted and instead of eating a bunch of stuff in search of something that would satisfy my nebulous cravings (the way I usually would), I just chose not to. I’m fairly proud of that.
The chips at break are a fairly serious thing though, because the only reason I ate anything is because I had stress oozing out of every pore on my body. It was the most bizarre, chaotic, frustrating and infuriating night ever. So I know that’s another incidence of stress eating, which is a big problem for me. I get stressed, and I handle it by finding something that tastes good. I get that endorphin burst from it and it helps me cope with the stress. The challenge is to find some other way of getting that endorphin burst, but that involves major retraining which is incredibly difficult. And the only thing I can think of offhand that would do it is sex, which is frankly off-limits in the breakroom, sorry. So much for that.
In any event, and in all seriousness, I need to find another way of handling the stress because not only am I stress eating, but I know my cortisol levels are probably through the roof, which is going to lead to blood sugar issues, which will lead to fat storage. So this is a big factor I really need to address.
Exercise-wise, I did all right. I did my spot exercises and did some walking at lunch at Target, though not really what I’d call cardio, but at least I was moving. 🙂
Overall, I’m happy. It’s a step in the right direction.
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