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Happy Thursday!

First, the Random Tidbits:

Today, of course, is the end of the Birthday Challenge – and a gloriously Happy Birthday to my girl, Bex; I hope you have an amazing one.  And y’all stop on by and wish her a Happy Birthday if you have a minute, would ya?  🙂

So, today is also the end of Phase One of my self-imposed weightlessness, i.e., life without a scale.  I’m fairly pleased with how I’ve handled it; I haven’t cheated once, even though there’s a scale downstairs at work (a hundred years old, but I know the differential between the reading and the legitimate number, oh, yes I do), and I’ve only had scale-cravings once or twice.  Never enough to actually go looking for it.

I debated whether to weigh in…and decided that if I felt anxious about it this morning, I wouldn’t do it – in other words, if I felt like the number was going to have any impact on my mood or well-being, I would abstain.  I finally decided to go ahead, because I wasn’t feeling like I cared much either way.

170.6.  Hmm.  I looked at the number and realized I couldn’t decide how to feel…which meant I didn’t have feelings about it.  Which, after all, was sort of the point.  🙂

Logically, it’s an okay number.  It’s up 2.4 pounds from my last weight.  Okay.  I’m currently entertaining my good buddy TOM after a six-week hiatus.  I can live with it.  Also, the body fat and hydration numbers hadn’t changed, and I am extremely happy about that.

So I think maybe I’m getting there, “there” being a place where I don’t live by the numbers.  I know that I’ve been extremely lax in behaviors, and I know that in the past week, I’ve turned that around enormously.  That is what I should feel bad and good, respectively, about – and that’s actually what I do feel bad and good, respectively, about.  I’m making progress!

I won’t weigh in again until my own birthday, or actually a few days before as my birthday is just after Labor Day.  So the Friday before Labor Day will be the next appearance of the scale at my house; it’s going back into hiding today courtesy of DH.  And I’m actually not remotely upset about that.  It will, however, be interesting to see if I have scale-cravings a few weeks into my good behaviors.  Are they going to be enough for me, or am I going to feel the need for numerical reinforcement?  That will, I think, be the real test.  It’s easy not to crave the scale when you’re goofing off and know the number won’t be good.  🙂

I do have a goal for my Labor Day Challenge.  It’s a simple one, and hard to quantify, but I like it.  By Labor Day, I want to see a change.  No, no numbers to hit…no pants sizes to get into…no measurements, no weight, no nothing like that.  I want to see a change.  I want to feel my clothes fit a bit differently, I want to feel more strength and muscle tone, I want to wobble a bit less.  It doesn’t have to be dramatic, just a noticeable, visible, palpable change.   It’s a completely achievable goal, I think.  And I’m going to start using my stars on my calendar again, since what I’m really shooting for here is behavioral consistency.  Today is Day One…anyone want to join me?

I had a wonderful conversation with a friend last night about the difference between being motivated by weight, and being motivated by how we feel, how we move and how we’re treating our bodies.  It was a great reinforcement of the ideals and goals we share and it went a long way toward shoring up my motivation.  It is good to have someone to share things like this with.

I did Week Two, Day Two of the Hundred PushUp Challenge last night, and it went well.  At the end, where you do as many as you can but at least a certain number, I always shoot for the minimum for the level above mine, just because then I feel like I’ve sort of gone the extra mile.  Last night, that meant ten…and I did it, even after all the other pushups I had done.  I was quite pleased.  🙂  I also did my crunches and reverse crunches.  Still no cardio…unless you count the walking I did yesterday morning when I had to move a turtle out of the road but the nearest place to pull over was about a quarter of a mile up the road.  I don’t know if I count that but it felt good to get out and move a little.

Other tidbits…I haven’t mentioned it, but I have poison ivy.  Like, everywhere.  In addition to everything else.  It’s even on my face.  My face.  It’s extremely distressing to me and for the first time ever, I’m considering going to the doctor for a shot.  But I have to say, the blackberry cobbler that I made with the berries I picked (which is where I got the poison ivy) was so, so worth it.  It was amazing.  And yet, that doesn’t make me happier about my face.

Today they start putting in the new carpet, I’m simultaneously excited and terrified.  I always question my decorating decisions horribly when the actual process starts; I’m so afraid I will have screwed up enormously and when there’s this much money involved, that makes me want to yak.  I’ve never been unhappy with the end result…yet…but I always do this.  But I’ll know soon enough and it’s too late to do anything about it anyway.

And now for my thankfulness.  Nothing profound…today, as I was driving in to work, careening down the mountain with AC/DC pouring out of the speakers at pretty near top volume, I thought, “I’m a little strange, maybe.  You don’t see a lot of 35-year-olds on their morning commute to their job in a law office, careening down the mountain with AC/DC pouring out of the speakers at pretty near top volume.  At least, not in this neighborhood.”  And then I laughed, because I really don’t want to be like the other commuters in this neighborhood anyway.

Today, I am feeling a bit thankful for individuality. Not just mine, but individuality in general.  I am so, so, SO glad that we live in a world where everyone is different.  I tend to choose friends from among the “fringe” so to speak – people who are who and what they are, unapologetically, whether that’s the same as Betty next door or completely different from anyone in the neighborhood.  I don’t tend to be drawn to conformists, or really even to people who just naturally fall into the same niche as 80% of the people around them.  I am drawn to that sparkle, that edge, that something that makes a person stand out just a little bit, and usually there’s some laughing at oneself and not taking life too seriously involved.  I like people who think for themselves, too, rather than taking whatever is served to them as the law.

I am very blessed in having met many people like this, and being able to get to know them.  I also feel pretty blessed in being one of those people myself.  So today, I am thankful for individuality and the fact that we are not all alike – and many of us don’t even want to be.

I love you all for who you are, and I hope that you do, too.  Have a wonderful Thursday!


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Well, happy Monday, everybody!  I’m officially the worst blog-buddy of all time…I am so far behind on everything it’s not even funny.  I’m hoping to get caught up this week.  On a lot of things!

Today is Day One of the Birthday Challenge and I’m a bit stoked.  This coincides with me coming to my senses sometime yesterday after a carb-and-fat-laden week or so, and realizing that it’s ridiculous for me to be behaving this way.  It’s not as though I don’t know better.

The thing is…I’ve been holding steady, weight-wise.  And that’s all well and good, and I’m not displeased about it.  But even so, I have been so aware of all of the negative aspects of eating badly and not exercising.  Things like bloating, joint and body aches, excess fatigue, depression.  Things that are a result of bad behavior – but which also tend to create a cycle and make me want to continue the bad behavior.  I feel too tired to exercise, or too achy.  I’m depressed, so I want to eat.  Things like that.

It’s more than a bit absurd.  These aren’t new lessons.  I know these things.  I’ve known them for quite some time now…this is not, by any means, my first rodeo, as we say in Oklahoma.  🙂

So the air is clearing and it’s time for me to just stop being silly.  I don’t believe in “starting over” or that sort of thing…because I’m not starting over.  I mean, I’m forty-some pounds (haven’t weighed today, sorry) and a whole host of health issues under where I started.  So, you know…I’m just getting back on the horse after wandering around for a while picking daisies.  🙂

One modification I am thinking of making to my program is a “splurge meal” once a week.  Not a day, just one meal.  I don’t know that it would make much difference in terms of health or weight loss, but I think it might make a huge difference in terms of morale.  Not only would it give me something to look forward to, but it would make it easier to stay on plan if I knew that deviations during the week would mean I couldn’t do the splurge meal.  So I’m considering it.

And I am totally taking a quote from the video Cammy posted as my mantra for the summer.  To get what we’ve never had, we must do what we’ve never done. I just love that, I really do.  There’s a reason I’ve never had that fit, healthy body.  And if I want it, I can’t just keep doing what I’ve always done.  If old bad habits were ever going to make me healthy, they already would have. Nope, gotta stick with the new and improved lifestyle!

So I’m feeling very strong and positive, and very committed.  My plan at this point is to walk at least five nights a week with my walking partner/neighbor, B.; to do my 30-Day Shred DVD at least four nights a week; to allow myself two days “off” from exercise, though I will still try to keep my steps up for the WOMAN Challenge; and to stick to my healthy eating with the exception of one splurge meal a week.

As for goals…well, those are as nebulous as ever.  Right now I really want to see 150 by the end of the summer.  I want to be completely comfortable in my size 8s – and comfortable for me usually means “loose”, so I have a little way to go.  And I want my muscle tone back! My body takes the very first opportunity to get flabby and soft; I really can’t afford to relax my vigilance.  🙂  But fortunately, it comes back pretty quickly once I start behaving.

So I’m setting my goal for the Birthday Challenge (July 24) as 10 pounds, and then my next goal will be 10 pounds by Labor Day.  I can do it.  There is no reason I can’t…only excuses.  And I’m sick and tired of excuses!  🙂

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week and I am going to try to catch up, though I may not manage it all today.  ED has to go to the doctor after school, so I’m leaving early, and I’ve got a full workout-schedule tonight.  But I’ll get caught up with you all soon…I am desperately out of date and can’t wait to see what is happening in all your lives!

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